• intensely_human@lemm.eeEnglish
        4·
        1 年前

        Put in the apartment application tonight. My credit’s better than it’s ever been, I have more cash on hand than I’ve ever had before, I even have money to pay movers this time. I don’t want to jinx it so I’m gonna expect obstacles still, but it’s looking good.

      • intensely_human@lemm.eeEnglish
        2·
        1 年前

        AND I got approved. Holy shit I’m so excited.

        You have no idea how dead one’s dating life becomes when they are 40 and have no place of their own. But mostly I’m looking forward to whatever untold levels of mental health await me when I get alone time every day, and don’t have to worry about the rent.

        I’ve had apartments before … and I was always late on the rent.

        I had a really high-paying job once … but I was moving from couch to couch because it was so high stress I couldn’t navigate finding a place, and I lived paycheck to paycheck, and that went on a year and a half and then they fired me. I might have been able to make it if I’d had an apartment, could truly rest each night.

        Now, it’s all coming together:

        The apartment
        The job
        AT THE SAME TIME

        Holy shit I have never been stable in my entire life.

        For my mother money was chaos. She worked for herself. It was boom and bust. We’d splurge. We’d scrape. We’d go without when money didn’t come in. She saved nothing. Ever. My grandfather died and the family decided to sell his land to a suburb developer. She got $35k. The money was gone in a flash, as was my grandfather’s beautiful land.

        My model of success in life was “be brilliant, get discovered, rocket to the stars”. I saw the world as chutes and ladders: lucky breaks catapulting me into new social strata. I went to a fancy college, took out loans.

        After I got out I quit my first full time job. Too boring. Moved into a techie frat house. Started writing code. Worked freelance because I wanted to be free.

        My friends and peers got jobs. Took vacations. Had their evenings free. I was a businessman! with no boss! I was free!. But I was always broke. Occasionally I’d get a big contract.

        But I didn’t follow through. I cut corners. I smoked weed like a chimney, and procrastinated my work. I worked super short days. I’d go to a coffee shop, open the computer, code for an hour, decide “eh I’ll get cracking tomorrow” and then I’d leave.

        I constantly drank coffee, thinking it would motivate me. I had no idea that anxiety was a bigger problem than any “lack of motivation” I had. So I’d sit there and drink coffee and eat simple carbs and get into a miserable state.

        But I was that glitzy, glamorous figure: the dude with the computer making bank in hourly. I kept cranking my rates up.

        My zen teacher said to me, repeatedly, “I think a good move for you would be to just get a full time job”. I ignored his advice.

        Then in 2017 I got my hands on some acid, and microdosed for a while. I suddenly realized: all my financial problems come from the irregularity of my income. The acid blew my mind with a new realization: I’m getting old and this working-for-myself shit isn’t working. (Thanks LSD!)

        Anyway, it’s been a long hard road and I now make almost nothing compared to when I made senior software dev money, yet my finances are healthier.

        I could go on and on. Thank you for your encouragement!

  • Eidolon@lemmy.worldEnglish
    11·
    1 年前

    I recently had the pleasure to slay it actually. It was the kinda like Twilight Zone but Horror ‘Night Gallery’ from 1996. It did exist, but the torrent that was circulating was messed up beyond belief. Episodes cut off at 20 minutes etc. Some dude on a private tracker ripped the whole thing anew for me.

  • alynnetjes@lemmy.worldEnglish
    11·
    1 年前

    I actually went and bought my white whale and ripped it myself eventually. It’s a silly movie called DEBS but every version I could find had an error in the final scene. So I ripped it from DVD, if only now I could figure out how to self host it.

    On a related note, the first white whale I ever had is how I got into piracy, it was a kids show called ik mik loreland that we got to see in school as to learn spelling. They never showed us the entire series, and I had been obsessed with it for years untill on the news they talked about birate-pay. Eventually found a tracker on tickass-korrents. It took me 6 months to complete from what I assume was one seeder who didn’t use a PC ever. Recently register it myself and am proud to say it now has 4 dedicated seeders.

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      6·
      1 年前

      Wow haven’t heard that name in a while. Chock full of 2000s B-actresses. Glad you could find it! Campy movies are sooo good.

      And what a story of the other series. Congrats and great to pay it forward.

  • lichtmetzger@feddit.deEnglish
    11·
    1 年前

    A good quality version of the “VR.5” tv series from 1995. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/VR.5

    It’s a TV show about virtual reality and has peak 90’s aesthetic. They shot the scenes in "virtual reality"on black and white film and colorized them manually afterwards to create a very distinct and vibrant look. That must’ve been so much hard work.

    Sadly, there is only a 240p VHS rip with extremely terrible quality out there. I’ve always wanted to watch the whole thing, but it’s too degraded to enjoy like this.

  • Musclewizard@lemmy.worldEnglish
    111·
    1 年前

    A cracked version of Hatch. It’s embroidery software that my GF has wanted to use for her hobby / tiny side hustle but a license costs literally hundreds of dollars.

    • Grey@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
      2·
      1 年前

      Plenty of options for embrilliance which seems to be a major competitor, maybe have her give that a try?

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      1·
      1 年前

      Interesting! I’d probably recommend VM route another posted suggested but if they are diligent with authentication and updates that may be difficult. Old school serial cracking a demo version may be viable here.

      • Musclewizard@lemmy.worldEnglish
        1·
        1 年前

        I’m not too proficient with cracking it myself but the software phones home and installs driver level stuff before it runs. It’s wild.

  • zos_kia@lemmy.fmhy.mlEnglish
    8·
    1 年前

    Kind of shameful but there is this one porn movie I used to have on a CDR that got lost between apartments. It’s stupid cause it’s #17 of a 20+ series and you can find #16 and #18 in like 2 minutes, but this one has disappeared from the face of the internet. The studio stopped listing it some time ago then they were bought out and the new owners never listed that one. Believe it or not I literally sent an email to the male star of the movie, but he never responded. There goes my holy grail. It must have gone out of stock and maybe the masters got lost or something. I know one rip was made at some point cause I found a filename in a listing, but it is long lost. Farewell lost porn 🙋‍♂️ farewell…

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      1·
      1 年前

      No shame dude! Maybe write the production company if they’re still around. Feel free to share the name or an embedded link to an info page. Never know if someone can help.

      • zos_kia@lemmy.fmhy.mlEnglish
        3·
        1 年前

        Actually i found a phone number to the new studio so i might just give them a ring and ask about !

        It’s a French series called “Sacrées Coquines”, volume 17 :D i doubt anybody’s heard of it

  • Neilia_1@lemmy.worldEnglish
    8·
    1 年前

    Shakira’s first 2 albums in lossless quality without any vinyl noise. I met a guy who shared a sample and I was amazed. Huge shame he’s offline…

  • InformalTrifle@lemmy.worldEnglish
    8·
    1 年前

    The original tv broadcast version of only fools and horses s06e01 (yuppy love). The dvd version available everywhere has a scene cut out where Rodney asks Casandra to dance and it’s so weird without it. I think it was due to copyright on the music playing in the scene

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      4·
      1 年前

      That’s unfortunate! I’ve heard of a similar case with other properties. I’ve heard some time ago that students have access to some version of the entire BBC library but I don’t know the extent of access or quality. There’s many UK shows I’d like to collect but they prove difficult to find still

    • weinermeat@lemmy.worldEnglish
      3·
      1 年前

      This is actually available on the internet, here’s the note for that episode:

      S06 01 - Yuppy Love (Music cuts restored) (TV/DVD/VHS)

      There are actually a lot of episodes throughout with music-related cuts judging from the list I’m looking at.

      • InformalTrifle@lemmy.worldEnglish
        1·
        1 年前

        Oh wow, I’ve actually found it with one seeder. Fingers crossed. Never could when I tried in the past. Thank you!

  • cuchilloc@vlemmy.netEnglish
    7·
    1 年前

    One game I do not even know the title of. My brother used to play it when I was 6 years old. I remember the game being monochrome, not sure about the crt itself. But it was a kind of XCOM if I’d have to describe it, about some crew that lands on an underwater planet. It’s still my white whale coz I still have not found even the name . I tried chatgpting suggestions recently to no avail.

  • Ian00@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    6·
    10 个月前

    Edit: After a really long time I finally stopped being lazy and figured out how to upload the book to ABB myself.

    I actually managed to find mine a while ago.

    I pirate a lot of hard sci-fi/cyberpunk audiobooks using stuff like Mobilism or AudiobookBay and using Sirin Audiobook Player to listen to them, one of the first series I added to my library was the Takeshi Kovacs trilogy by Richard K. Morgan.

    See everything was fine with the first two books (Altered Carbon and Broken Angels) which were readily avaliable on both those sites, but it was the final book Woken Furies that I was really after, reason being there were two versions: One was everywhere I looked and is narrated by William Dufris and the other that I was actually looking for is by Todd McLaren.

    Basically people really hated how the first version by William sounded (there was an unnecessary reverb effect in some parts and he pronounces the main character’s name wrong throughout the whole book) to a point they started a petition to get Todd McLaren (who did the first two books) to redo the final one. McLaren actually says the guy’s name right in all the books and generally is a better narrator, also the weird reverb effects were gone.

    It took months of searching but I eventually found it through Mobilism (second result in the image), using a burner e mail I got a free trail of their premium service to directly download the file. Now I can rest easy knowing I have all three books read by the same person.

  • sparvin69@lemmy.fmhy.mlEnglish
    6·
    1 年前

    A BBC art history documentary series called “Private Life of a Masterpiece”. I have about half in a mixed bag.

    Also the 5th season (I think) of an old Food Network show called “The Thirsty Traveler”.

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      2·
      1 年前

      The Life of a Masterpiece has a result in PBay and on 1337x. Didn’t test if the seeders are still good.

      Food network is always huge hit or miss on public trackers.

  • Zefrem23@lemmy.dbzer0.comEnglish
    6·
    1 年前

    It’s not a white whale, it’s a Holy Grail. The white whale is something that occupies your every waking moment and you wish to eliminate so you can get on with your life.

  • DidacticDumbass@lemmy.oneEnglish
    5·
    1 年前

    Seven Days. It has one of the coolest premises, and the lead is like a combination of James Bond and McGuyver.

    I never found it on any tracker, but I literally looked it up before writing this and learned it has a DVD release in 2018, so that is exciting.

    • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
      4·
      1 年前

      The TV series from around 2000? Kind of a generic name (tons results with variations on the name), so trying to clarify what you’re looking for! Interesting premise, similar to Quantum Leap or Sliders if it is.

        • QuikxSpec@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
          1·
          1 年前

          Sounds like a show I would watch! Hopefully you can find a DVD somewhere. UPN and ION had some great underrated shows

          • DidacticDumbass@lemmy.oneEnglish
            1·
            1 年前

            I am going off my childhood memories, but I remember it being awesome.

            A running theme I remember the most is the main character having a high pain threshold, which basically translates to him getting tortured every episode.

    • lichtmetzger@feddit.deEnglish
      4·
      1 年前

      The one time he landed his time machine in the middle of some spectators: “Don’t worry, we’re doing a low-budget science fiction series”

      I still remember that to this day. It’s a great series, they let it end when it was still awesome and didn’t drag it out any longer.

      • DidacticDumbass@lemmy.oneEnglish
        2·
        1 年前

        I never got to see the ending. I only watched a handful of episodes, and definitely nowhere close to the 66 that were produced.

        I am glad that it has a good ending. Seems like a perfect capsule of a series.