I hate this timeline.

I hope the nightmare fuel is enough to get Megaman built before 2040.

Bolts of cotton too. Or maybe some jade or obsidian.

Consume nutrients to reproduce.

Living in the future is weird.

Scrolling through “New” since I’m an information junkie.

I want a Save and Load feature for myself in regards to reality.

Peanuts & breakfast cereal.

I like both. I got two framed pictures of archaeopteryx.

What about a toasted pb&j?

I assume they mean sirracha pepper jelly and not Rooster Sauce or similar sirracha condiments.

Mongolian throat singing.

Spicy pb&j, that’s something I need to try.

Do you guys even eat peanut butter sandwiches?

I have never heard of it before, but I’m going to make consuming some a new life goal.

Keeping myself isolated.

Chances are low I’ll do that, I paint for myself. I like painting models since it is analog and I work on a computer all day. It’s an activity that I do for my own benefit thus I’m reluctant to share with the public for fear of losing that feeling of self fulfillment. I’m also a far better painter than a photographer.

Edit: Your genestealers are coming along nicely.

Hey I’ve definitely been in your place before. What got me learning coding skills was motivation for a career change, a platform that worked for me (Udemy), and accepting my failed attempts. Small bursts of motivation are more than what most people have. Utilizing them when they come on are opportunities to get a lot done in short periods of time. Don’t dedicate yourself to paths that don’t appeal to you, half the fun is figuring out what kind things make you tick.

As far as wanting to be dead, existentialism is always a painful bitch. Reading Marcus Aurelius’ Meditations helped me alot. It doesn’t take away pain, but can help cultivate core reasons for one’s actions. That helps with existing, at least for me.

Don’t beat yourself up.

I’m preparing to go to bed instead of painting Warhammer 40K Orks.

Bizarre sub communities with rich veins of content. I want to see pictures of amateur electric sign makers, marbel olympics, and graffiti.