Solitude.

Many YEARS of Solitude & Isolation.

Getting away from the abuser/prejudice, and since it is normal-culture, itself, whose prejudice is my fundamental abuser, then getting away from everybody, for years, gave me the means to continue living.

That, combined with Frawley's ayurvedic appropriate-to-one's-metabolism ingredients food, which massively helped my health,

& William J. Walsh's "Nutrient Power" book, which really oughta be corrected, a bit…

I replicated both is undermethylated-DNA-disorder treatment and his pyrrol-disorder treatment, each 4 times, and at-least 2 different ways.

Undermethylated-DNA-disorder: enteric-coated SAM-e, 40mins before breakfast, with clear water ( or tea, but NO carbs/food ) worked in 3 months, and Methionine worked in 4 months. The only times in my life I've ever experienced ZERO stress, which was awesome. Takes-away my academic-drive, though, so I only would use Methionine now to "take the edge off", if the stress of undermethylation-distortion were gimping me or my life.

Pyrrol-disorder ( amygdala-hijack always pressuring, and ambushing/breaking one into PTSD-RAGE, with any "straw that broke the camel's back" ), was treated best with the mixture of Zinc Gluconate, Zinc Picolinate, Arachidonic-acid-precursor Evening Primrose Oil ( 2 big capsules / day ), and P5P form of one of the Vitamin B's. This gave me the ONLY experience I've ever had, in my life, of not-fighting-the-pressure-of-pending-amygdala-hijack-every-second, and it left me … HAPPY. Never experienced anything like that, before… Why'd I quit it? I'm a Vajrayana, & meditation must be my primary-weapon of self-conquering, not pills, AND taking Zinc every 6 hours was a brutal regime, and it was razor's-edge chemical-balance to maintain. Walsh is right that people with pyrrol-disorder ( which wrongly eradicates zinc from our bodies, leaving too-little for normal management of copper, or for methylation-of-DNA for that matter ) require dangerous ( to others! ) levels of metals-intake to reach correct-balancing between copper & zinc. I was taking enough to probably kill any non-pyrrol-disorder person: 4x the Tolerable Upper Limit. It worked, though, exactly as Walsh indicated.

So:

Solitude, & systematically healing food, & the corrections for 2 epigenetic-disorders that Western Medicine won't allow are real ( because it'd GUT authority-based psychiatry if the evidence were admitted ), that demonstrated exactly what actually is wrong, and gave me leverage in owning my life, more completely.

EVIDENCE-based knowing.

.: Scientific Method is itself one of the therapies I broke the gaslighting of doctors ( and medical-professional parents ) with, and so must be considered a valid therapy, too.

Kaizen, aka relentless evolving, as one's personal Religion. ( my cosmology is Vajrayana, simply because Universe's-speech, aka Evidence, broke the worldviews I was brought-up in. Ramakrishna Vivekananda too contempted the prejudice masquerading as "science", that I call Scientism, which presumes materialism, and therefore presumes that Awareness/Knowing/Meaning/Will can't be real, but that is prejudice: all those are testable and objectively-real.

Some have even tested entanglement in the macro-scale by experiment:

• the experiment of having dog-owners set a video recorder in their home, with timestamping on, and they mark down when they decide to leave for home, at work, and the video records if the dog(s) light-up right then … obviously, it doesn't matter how many such pairs don't demonstrate such entanglement: if even 1 pair is so good at demonstrating it, then that falsifies the dogma that "That Can't Happen" and "That Isn't Possible".
• the experiment of having women in some quiet context, and a wired camera that can see them is connected to a switcher, and one, or another, person is watching a monitor, and sometimes that monitor is showing the woman… can she identify when someone is watching her?? IF yes, THEN that, too, falsifies the materialist Scientism/prejudice "That Can't Happen" and "That Isn't Possible".

Since I've experienced enough evidence to know when authority-based-"science" is gaslighting me, and since even physicist Weinberg commented on the fact that 100 ORDERS OF MAGNITUDE contradiction between evidence & established-theory, re the measured Cosmological Constant, vs The Standard Model of Cosmology

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cosmological_constant_problem

Scientism is unfalsifiable, Science holds that ONE "Black Swan", that really exists, FALSIFIES "All Swans Are White", no matter how Scientism keeps conveniently-measuring only white swans, as a means of "proving" that only white swans exist…

Karl Popper would have called-out that NON-falsifiable dogma ISN'T AND NEVER WAS Science, as would have Carl Sagan…

Evidence convinced me of what I hold to be true, and I'm continuing on that path, until I die, in the hopes of breaking my Soul/CellOfGod/ChildOfGod/Atman from getting perpetually-recycled in Universe.

IF you prefer authority-based-medicine, and have the gall to ignore the evidence even called-out in one of John Brockman's books, probably "This Idea Must Die" ( that "evidence based medicine" which provably ISN'T evidence-based, it is authority-based ), then contempt me, categorically, as defective, in your religion.

Addiction-to-integrity & addiction-to-Universe's-actual-bizarre-unfolding/opening both are good addictions, to me.

You have your assumption-river/religion, fundamentalist-materialists have theirs, I have mine.

Eternity is going to continue reprpocessing/recycling ALL energies contained within Universe, and I want out, pronto.

Remain within, if that makes you feel great.

That is what evolution means, within a continuum/soul, obviously: your soul sows, through you, your soul reaps, through future "lives"/incarnations. How could it work properly if you just don't mean anything? MEAN what you mean: self-honesty, no matter how contempted by the currently-fashionable prejudice, is healing!

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Born autistic, lost 10% of my brain between about 10-16, then, in the last 14y or so ( I'm gaining on 60yo ), a thousand-ish concussions, trying to break my will-to-live with a cudgel, so I could murder my life, but eventually learned that will-to-live is stronger, in this brain, than I am, so I'm stuck living, and therefore am stuck living with the consequences of all-3 waves of brain-injury.

It takes years to grow-in new/replacement brain, but the meditations do speed the process.

( Western minds may find convincing in a book named "Super Genes" by geneticist Tanzi & co-author Chopra, and it cites the science backing its arguments for malleable/earnable healing )

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